Sibling bonding time

I finished this two days ago, and it was meant to be my grandma’s birthday gift. Unfortunately, she was in the hospital at the time, so I wanted to quickly get it presented to my teacher, get a grade or whatever, and quickly show it to her because I knew it was two days late. 
Just yesterday, my teacher didn’t think it was finished and she wanted me to fix out several details, which angered me even more because I wanted to give the painting to my grandma right away. So, I took a picture and sent it to my mom jic she would happen to show it to her. My hope was that I could finish it today and bring it to the hospital, and not put it on display at our senior art show, because giving it to her was more important.
However, last night, as I was lying in bed from a long day at work, I couldn’t help but think something was off. I knew both my parents and the family on my moms side was at the hospital still, and it was getting close to midnight. So I got out of bed and crept downstairs so I could call in private to see if everything was ok. It took multiple calls for my dad, instead, to pick up the phone. I remember the conversation so clearly and I remember feeling confused and alienated to what he was trying to say. 
My grandma had passed away about 20 minutes ago, and I was just lying in bed. I didn’t know what to think or do; I felt like nothing mattered; I felt sick and my chest felt heavy and I just wanted to curl up and forget that this was true. 
It took what seemed awhile for my parents and family to quietly come home and explain to me what happened. I kept wailing and weeping over how I felt I never spent enough time with her. After going over my regrets and how I never gave her the birthday gift, my mom smiled and said that she showed her the picture I sent to her from my phone, and she showed it to grandma. My mom said that she loved it and in that moment I felt a little relieved that she could at least see my work, that was made up of all my hopes and love for her to get better and that we would get the chance to play golf together and get closer. But for now, I just know she’s smiling and laughing at how proud she is to be a grandma and a mother, and how pro she is at golf and poker. I love you Grandma; this ones for you, with all my love; Thank you.

Love always,
Maddie